time redux

sometimes it's a simple as a nice cup of earl grey at a good friend's house, step out of time as u know it

or taking a few deep breaths in the backyard meditation garden

or laughing at the kooky creations we make, like the old crone of the garden

nature is one of my fav "outta time" reset buttons

muse stones and a sweet birdbath i made last year give me pause

sunshine and a sense of humor..and cruzing my absolute fav north shore ocean side digs, newburyport

s m i l e...it too breaks the frenetic mind buz

lacking time seems to be something i've been at odds with most of my life and especially since i've committed to going the route of flying my own biz. i'm sorting out what i think and feel about time and how i'm experimenting with approaching it differently. i 've had lots of food for thought now that i'm finishing the e-courses/tele-classes i began a month -ish ago: kelly rae robert's -flying lessons and georgia lee london's- abundance boot camp.

both have offered how to's on perceiving time, what we do with it, how we orient our days to make the most of it. ... well, last nite i felt a shift settle over me listening to georgia describe working from the source place and letting that be the compass... this shift was a welcome one, one that i've wanted for a very long time. it wasn't so much a light bulb popping aha moment as much as a deep sigh., like when u first drive up to your home after having been away for a long time. i sense this new relationship with time that's getting reinforced thru these classes is helping me feel more at home within myself and to be bold enough to enter into a flow with how i live my days..one that floats me downstream from what seems prevalent around me. away from frenetic and scattered and toward centered focus and passion.

you know this whipped up pace we as women, mammas, artists, healers, shuttlers, clean-er-upppers......think we HAVE to keep up or IT won't get done??? and when we're working our magic to make our dream machine soar..well that's a whole other wheel to spin...right??

and on top of the current crush craze we've signed on for there's the family training to consider too:

being raised by a single mom who struggled alot and worked and toiled alot and had a job she didn't love set me up as a child with some pretty hefty impressions of what i did and didn't want when my "time" came to enter the adult world. i didn't want to work for someone else and i didn't want to struggle, to be shriveled by my career and i didn't want to toil to become financially secure. so for years i've battled with what i was raised with and what culture tells us we must do. I've had an aversion to really going for my dreams because I didn't want to be burnt to a crisp and wither on my own vine.

but i was really seeing only half the picture.

do u ever notice how when you really want to "get" something really make it urs , the universe steps in and surrounds you with lots of support to take you there? i call it a chapter of learning and right now the chapter is "it's up to you- let's have a time redux."

sooo..all around me are little reminders and way pointers to seal in the whole idea of how it could be for me instead of how i've feared it would HAVE to be:

rice freeman-zachary 's book, creative time and space;making room for making art (i grabbed it when when met ..i thought i bought it to support her artistic career...it wasn't something that i felt a big rush to have and yet....clever universe).. has these juicy nuggets from various artists interviewed:

"I tend to work between 8-12hr days a day. Its hard for me to define a 'work day' cuz i mix alot of photography and internet time which are very recreational. even though, technically, i am working i enjoy these activities so much that it really doesn't seem like it should count as 'work hours'. my creativity doesn't begin and end in the studio. i try hard to infuse all aspects of my life with the same energy that goes into designing clothes and accessories."

"everything i do revolves around being an artist. i do what i love and have passion for it, so it doesn't feel like work."

if you re-think your concept of time, you'll begin to see a spacious quality to your days that you would have sworn wasn't there yesterday. if you can imbue everything you do -from the client meetings to carpooling-with creativity, you'll find that the days feel more expansive, as if you've put a little bit of elastic in them."

"..let's consider the more organic approach that works best for some people. instead of setting up a firm schedule, you allow yourself to flow from one task to the next, even if the tasks are widely divergent-say bookkeeping and painting."

yes yes yes! i had just such a day this weekend. had to whole day to play with my dream machine and this flow back and forth was precisely how i worked..on the computer downloading addresses, over to the studio to prep some canvas, breaking for a bit of yoga, emailing clients, catching up on kelly rae posts, recording receipts into my budget book...it was beautiful..left me feeling so connected and satisfied. hadn't once thought about the time...just floating downstream..and i got a ton done.

so this chapter is one i'll need to keep close to me as i learn to stay in the current. it's so easy and tempting to get caught in the rip tides of worry, rush, stress..but right now i'm feeling goood. so i'm going with it.

come on in...the water's fine!!!!!!!!!!!